Your right. I know subconsciously I’m already aware of the fact. The future I imagined would be ruined if I stay with him… but part of my future involved him and I don’t know how to let go of that. I’m not saying that I’m considering staying with him, in fact, I think as soon as I bring up the topic later he will definitely break up with me but I’m fighting the urge to just say sureee I’m straight just to appease him and go back in the closet.