I don't think you realize the seriousness of what you have done.

Imagine that one of your (GIRL)friends told you: "He went inside me and started having sex with me till I woke up. I was upset and told him to stop but he didn’t. He ended up finishing inside me."

What would you say to your girlfriend?

Just because he's a man doesn't mean your boyfriend can't say no. Just because he is hard in the morning when he wakes up doesn't mean he wants to. No means no.

You raped your boyfriend, and your only problem is "How do I get him to do it (again)?". Wow. Girl, you have some serious issues, and it's about time you learn the meaning of "consent".

But he should leave you.

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