Lol genuinely trying to build something with her. I know all too well what it's like to be homeless, to be broke, to be a trauma victim...I deserved grace and patience from my loved ones. I'm doing far better now. I was hoping that she might see the same kind of growth with some love and patience. I'm officially out of patience. It's not even like she has hurt me intentionally. But it is at the same time? I dunno. The bite scar on my arm is from when she came home drunk one night. We went to an annual memorial thing for a friend of hers thay passed away some time ago. I didn't drink much. She planned to get drunk. She knew I didn't like that but she's an adult i guess. I left early and told her i had work very early. So, i'd likely be in bed waiting on her. 2 hours later she shows up toasted with 2 other drunk friends. Starts blasting disney music for me and all our neighbors to hear from the back porch. I got frustrated. I handled this shit way wrong. I got her to have her friends leave. It was apparent i was mad but i hadnt been rude to her guests. I went to bed irrotated and she slunk off to another bedroom that was mostly unoccupied. Just a tv and tv stand with a few boxes in the closet. Once again, she's now intentionally blasting the tv and the remote is by the tv. She's by the back wall. I went in there, yelled "i trying to fucking sleep!!" And threw the tv remote (nowhere near her might i add) pretty aggressively to the side. Went back ti my room, shut and locked the door.

Now she's banging and screaming to let her in. I said no because i wanted to sleep in peace and to talk about it later when she isn't drunk. She didn't like that. Broke down the door (cpst me $200 she never paid me) and charged at me. I defended myself, got bit. Cops get called and ahe actually went to jail for the weekend. I dropped the charges despite the attorney telling me these things rarely work out and often only get worse.

As of the week before xmas, i have a scar ony forehead and a broken finger. But she's always so sorry and hates herself for those outbursts.