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MusilonPim t1_j6o6kk3 wrote

Even though the doctor generally has a higher "status" than a patient, it can definitely happen that a professional doesn't know what to do and how to deal with both being professional and having feelings (positive/negative) that get in the way.

If I were you, I'd be happy to have had the courage to bring it up, the rest is just your doctor showing that she is also a flawed human being. Nothing bad, just uncomfortable.

I hope you don't beat yourself up over it and face the future with just another bit of experience under your belt.

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TrainParticular3565 t1_j6o7fl8 wrote

unfortunetely obsessing over human behaviour and analysing every detail is part of my problem especially combined with deep feelings and my goal was to relieve myself and not causing more problems, I am also having a hard time to understand how I might have irritated her, since I tried to hide it and I think I managed to do that very well and I was looking as intensely and enquiring at her as I did with everyone else.

Things without logic are very hard for me to let go and I have to admit I am a bit hurt by it and I know I have the courage to these things. It's not hard for me, normal things are though. And I am beating myself up, because I am emotionally unstable. She also praised me for having the courage but then contradicted herself by making me insecure with her behaviour.

Thanks for reading my long post though!

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