To be honest I have no answer for your questions and even if I had, I guess the only way to see christ comes from within. E.g holy ghost.

So thats the thing, I was atheist, despised religion in general, but liked the simulation theory. One day I got into trouble so bad that I kneeled and said, we'll Jesus if you are even listening take me out of this, and he did. Could be all coincidence, but there was like so many coincidences afterwards that I chose to never get back to my old world view. This was like 10 years ago BTW.

So yeah, not claiming christianism is the right thing for everyone, but it is to me and it satisfied a lot of misteries that science brought to me.