Finally and indefinitely existing, no looming deadlines on the horizon, no future date where i have to go back to work, just beeing free in the moment and forever from the scourge we call work. I could laze around and casually pursue my hobbies at a leisure pace for all eternity. I would be so relaxed and free from dread that Budha would look like a coked up stressfactory compared to me. Unlike most people i met i need 0 external motivations to justify my reason to live and have a meaningfull life, i get more than enough meaning from existing alone for me to go on forever doing whatever i feel like doing that day.