I deconstructed about fifteen years ago myself; out of an AG church I'd grown up in. You are welcome to PM with questions if you'd like.

My book/source recommendations would be altered by where you felt you were at. I could give you the list that worked for me. But I'm pretty sure it wouldn't be as helpful. Different life stories and all.

So, if you don't mind the presumption, what are you questioning? God? How your churches are behaving in reaction to things? Accountability for non-denominational, and denominational as well, leaders who abuse their power? The Bible? How your church interprets the Bible? Age of the earth? Existence of an historical Jesus?