Lmaooo. OP like "I'm being a major piece of shit, but I don't want to be! I am going to use this to motivate myself to change."

Then just fucking change, you clown. You are cheating on the woman you live with and talking about it like it's choosing shorts instead of pants on a brisk day. These aren't people to OP. They are just props in the narrative of his autobiography.

Imagine being such a monumental piece of garbage.