Hello

For an 18 year old sinner you are very articulate.

Anyways, sorry for your predicament things will probably be difficult for a time but nothing has to be broken or stay broken.

You said: "We've not always financially been in the best spot, yet I've always had everything I needed given to me, with the only thing asked of me in return is my love and the promise to be a good person"

Not joining the delusion of religion means nothing in regards to your giving love or being a good person.

If you feel so stressed out, pick something that your family or religion values which you also value. Then spend some energy there. By making the world a better place in a way that your family recognizes you can accomplish a lot of things that will help you at this age. You can 1. Make the world better - yay! 2. Show your love to your parents and their community. 3. Meet people who can help broaden your circle to include secular people as well - hopefully without antagonizing your family.