Couldn’t handle the stress of school & lockdown and vyvanse (ADD) made me totally emotionally numb. I was claustrophobic & lonely going between our 2 small apartments (his in a nice high rise), it was difficult to bring my cat & all our stuff back and forth. A few times I asked him if he would be open to moving to a ground level or somewhere with roommates/a pod, but not sure he understood I was serious. I probably didn’t communicate as well as needed. So I opted to stay with friends & mom in ground level places with more space/privacy/freedom to come and go easily with my cat and work really hard in school (nontrad) to save my sanity. I think I was also a bit depressed as well. We didn’t really break up, just talked less and less. Heard from a friend that he was heartbroken.
We are in our 30s for context. I tried to catch back up with him after his rebound (Jan 2022) but he was with someone else right after that so fast we never got a chance to talk about it (April 2022). He finally moved and told a friend he was ready to settle down with someone who checks certain boxes & the new girl does check most of the boxes, but they don’t seem that happy. I’ve never really been interested in anyone other than him & he was always good to me. Realized I made a huge mistake after coming off vyvanse a couple months ago & been a wreck lately.
TL;DR Didn't realize my ADD meds were numbing me out and let the guy I loved go.
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