You have nothing to be sorry about. I can see why my post would strike a nerve with you and bring up such a painful part of your life. And the way I received your reply was more of genuine concern because of your personal experience which is valid.

Before adding in the mmj I was on 100mcg/hr fentanyl patch(the strongest you can get outside of a hospital or being prescribed 2 patches to wear at a time) and oxycodone for break thru pain. I asked my dr if I could lower the fentanyl dose and add in mmj to compensate and he was all for it. So over 6 months we tapered me down to the 50mcg/hr patch and half the break thru oxy and I was able to get the same, if not better relief of my pain. I mainly use RSO as my mmj with the occasional joint that last me 3-4days taking just a few tips here n there.

Yes I am in severe chronic pain that will never be cured or fixed. I was in a motor vehicle accident as a young child and I was not in the proper child restraint seat for my size and age. As a result of that my gut was crushed by the lap belt that caused my intestines to rupture. Then as a teen I had a bowel obstruction that required surgery to remove the dead tissue and everything went tits up. That left me with a scar from sternum to my pelvis that's as wide as my hand and is widening constantly due to losing 40% of my abdominal muscles. So as it widens it also thins and now it's only a few millimeters thin separating my insides from out. You dont realize just how much you need your abs for walking, sitting, ect. So without the pain medication I literally cannot walk more than a few steps without collapsing.