Yeah some of us have a lot better control of the symptoms and can remain relatively functional. Others are unfortunately way worse off so every time I get this way I have to force myself to remember I'm still quite lucky in the long run I suppose.

It's a struggle though, sometimes feels like I'm constantly fighting an uphill battle. Like I want to get through classes but my brain is starting to struggle to keep up with the advanced content. I'm 30 but it's just so tough sometimes to focus on the material and push myself to keep going.

Have actually been out if college for a whole year at this point and am kind of scared to go back. I want to achieve more but my push and desire to accomplish stuff has just been diminishing lately. Hopefully next semester I can get back on and go. I also just think my younger brothers passing just hit me a lot harder than I thought. He always wanted more and more and it was inspiring to watch but turns out he was struggling with his own demons and addiction got the better of him.