So the title sounds awful.. and it honestly is. But, okay. For context, I'm a 22 year old female and I've been so fucking hyped about the new Hogwarts Legacy game for like over a year now. Since the first trailer of it came out honestly. And I thought that it came out last week because that's what I saw— and yes, I know I'm an idiot for not doing a more thorough check. But I told all of my coworkers about it and how fucking ecstatic I was over buying and playing it after getting off. I was having a few drinks at the bar (I work as a server at a steakhouse) and waiting for my boyfriend to get off work and come pick me up so I was just RAVING about my joy for it. What house I would be, how I'd stay up all night playing it... all that jazz.

Well, anyways, I went home that night and was SEVERELY disappointed that it still said "pre-order." Apparently it only came out that day for people with a PS5. I have a PS4 so yep. Turns out I have to wait until April to buy and play it. Literally almost cried because I was so sad lmao. Like seriously. I told my boyfriend to give me a second to process it and just like totally not have a meltdown. Does this mean I have issues? Absolutely. But yeah. Glad I have no kids myself, yeah?

The next day, after my shift (not a fuck up today but a few days ago), I was having a few drinks again and waiting on my boyfriend when I went out back for a smoke. My manager and someone from the kitchen were out there with me (both dudes) and asked me about how I was liking it. I just kinda frowned and proceeded to tell them the news and essentially how stupid and sad I was, and then drunkenly compared it to miscarriaging a child. In detail. Like I think I said, "it's like finding out you're pregnant and being so super excited about it and then realizing that boom, you lost the child and all hope was lost."

I kinda realized I fucked up in that moment because both of them went silent. Like, heads down as they both took deep drags from their cigarettes and just showed no emotion whatsoever. A moment of awkward silence later and my manager says, "yeah.. my wife went through something like that.." And then the kitchen dude told me his girlfriend had a miscarriage herself. And when I tell you guys I fucking went pale as a ghost.. Omfg.

They said it's not like I knew, but my manager told me to never mention anything like that to his wife, who also works there as a bartender, because it just wasn't a miscarriage for them... It was a full still-born.

I apologized profusely to both of them and I was such a fucking asshole for being so insensitive but.. guess I learned my lesson, eh? Still SO fucking stupid of me.

Not looking for responses like "you fucking insensitive idiot" (not like I don't deserve them and know that myself). But hey, there was my fuck up of the day.

Note to self: never do that again.

TL;DR: drunkenly compared the disappointment to not being able to play the new Hogwarts game to miscarriaging a child and ended up with very awkward conversations & bumbling (from my end at least)