Bro 🤦🏼‍♂️ why can't you just be honest with her? Clearly you lying and trying to be "alpha" didn't work. There's no such thing as "alpha" anyways, she's a grown ass woman and doesn't need some prick thinking he's in control of her. Insecure dudes use the term to try and make themselves feel better and it's just pure cringe. If you were just honest with the poor girl, she would have been more understanding and willing to take things slow. And if not, then that's her choice and maybe she doesn't want the responsibility of being someone's first. Lying and withholding information just to uphold a false appearance so you don't look weak is the actual weakest thing to do. Being honest and truthful the only thing close to being "alpha".