I definitely got that you had been diagnosed with some type of depressive disorder, that's why I was pointing out the need to balance the whole taking responsibility thing with the acknowledgement of what you're doing right - like I said, give yourself credit where credit is due. That part is much harder for someone in your situation, so I know, easier said than done. 🖤 As for the NHS and how it works over there, again, I have no idea, as I am in the US (AND DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED on the lack of resources over here... I've worked in the mental health field for years over here and it's... ugh.), but please don't give up on yourself! It's worth fighting to get the help you need!