Submitted by RatRattedRatness t3_10y50n3 in tifu
Title sounds odd and imma need to give a lot of context. I (18f) have a few coworkers where it took me a few months to start to chat with them but now I really enjoy our conversations. I have one who I’ve felt a pretty strong bond with, and every shift we have together I’ll get excited and spend half my time hoping he’ll come over to my area and hang out with me (we’re not heavily supervised and it’s a retail job). I’ve started to realize I may be a little attached and I very much want to become a friend and hang out outside of work. The few minutes we get to hang out every shift are the most fun i have all week.
Here’s where the problem starts; whenever he comes to my area he’ll offer me his vape and I’ll take a few hits. I only ever vape socially as I don’t own one or care to own one, so I only do it when it is offered to me. I’ve come to realize that my heavy desire for him to come over to hang out with me during our shifts may not just be because I feel a “huge connection” but I actually have a nicotine addiction.
Tl:dr thought I was obsessed and maybe in love with my coworker but he actually just gave me a nicotine addiction and I only get a hit when he talks to me.
Edit: oh my goodness I did not expect more than 3 people to see this. I’ve read most of the comments and some people were very nice and some people,, were not,, and that’s okay!! I’ve seen anything from I should smoke more to im an idiot of doing it at all LOL(which is true )
I do realize that it’s been a bad choice and I had every option to say no without a fuss, but hey sometimes stupid feels good.
I don’t think I expressed the level of crazy I’ve been feeling and made it seem more like “oh I enjoy talking to this person😌😌” it’s more like half of my waking hours at work or otherwise I am thinking about interacting with this person. Like I have worked with him for months and it’s only after I started using his vape do I feel the compulsive need to be around him. Like I enjoy the conversations, and it’s a good time regardless. but it’s more the euphoria I feel while talking to him mixed with the head rush is just an addicting interaction
It’s not to say I don’t like him as a person. I reallly would like to be friends and without the vape I’d totally want to be around him still. But I do think my feelings are very much under the realm of compulsive and obsessive then a typical crush,, trust me
Also no, none of this occurred inside the building for those concerned
sorry this is rushed I’m between rounds of my game