Getting right to the point: I had a partner and I feel like a complete douchebag for hurting him the way I did. We started dating in December, and everything was going great. My first mistake, however, was getting with him almost immediately after leaving a relationship in which I was cheated on. Things were still fine though. Up until about the end of February/beginning of March (I’m really bad with dates and such so that may be pushed back a bit). He had started to get touchy, and while I was uncomfortable, I didn’t say anything out of fear that I’d disappoint him (I do this with practically everyone I care about). That was my second mistake. I had started to distance myself from him without even realizing it, and I lied to him a lot about my feelings and such. We broke things off, then got back together, and have now broken things off again for good. He’s upset for the lies I would tell him, and I don’t blame him at all. I feel really guilty, but there isn’t anything I can say or do to fix this. None of this is his fault, and I take the blame for everything. I should’ve communicated better, and I didn’t. I have a feeling that part of the reason I didn’t trust him was because I’m used to most of the people in my life treating me like shit, and seeing him not do that was odd to me. I didn’t give him my full trust, and I’m mad at myself for not being able to trust him fully before.

TLDR; I lied to my ex partner about my feelings and we broke things off.