Hi! (M/20) English isn't my main language , so sorry in advance for any mistakes

Anyway, in my story there are two girls and they're both cousins (J and A)

6 years ago I met this girl in school (let's call her Jessica) and we became friends. I was into her and she was into me but through out all 2017 I never actually asked her to be my girlfriend and our school year used to start in Feb and end in November

So we couldn't see each for like 2 months (Dec and Jan) so I literally used to call her all the time and it seemed like things were going super well. I decided I would ask her to be my girlfriend once we got back in school and that's what I did. She said no and I felt like I just wasted my time with her. I decided I wouldn't chase after her so I stopped talking to her after that

We literally spent 2018 and half of 2019 without talking to each other (in 2019 I started highschool and she went to another highschool) In the middle of 2019 she found me on Facebook and we started talking again We then decided we would be friends with benefits and I was super happy about that

Jessica and I literally didn't see each other in 2020 because of the pandemic but that didn't stop us from still being friends and become closer and closer... I was still a virgin and Jessica was too a virgin. I was too afraid of being made fun of so I always lied to her about that(saying I already had sex before)

So we started having some arguments and fights and that became really common In 2021, we had a big fight and we went like 4 months without talking or seeing each other. I reached out and said I wanted to see her after all this time So I go to her house and we were talking, then she told me she had lost her virginity to her ex boyfriend at a party and I felt like I was cheated on. I was still a virgin and I always thought she would be the first girl I would have sex with

At that day we had a little argument but that was enough to kinda destroy our friendship From that point onward she felt really insecure about me. Jessica thought I only looked at her as a person to have sex with (she was right but I felt like I was cheated on and I then became desperate to lose my virginity with her)

She obviously wasn't comfortable with that and we never actually had any sex. 2022 arrived and we were still friends but we kept on having our fights, nothing new

Jessica was sick around October and she asked me too go see her. When I got there I met Anna, her cousin, and she is really beautiful I didn't think of her as a potential partner, I just thought she was a cool girl to hang out with

She asks me if I like reading books and I said no. She then insisted and asked me to read a certain book and I said "OK, ask Jessica my number and send it through Whatsapp"

The very next day Anna sent it. I replied and we kept on talking for about a day or two but it wasn't certainly going anywhere

We went a full month without talking to each other and out of the blue Anna leaves me a message on WhatsApp asking me how things are going. I replied with "great. I really enjoyed talking to you, you're a pretty cool person to talk to" and I wasn't lying. Long story short we didn't stop talking ever since and I started having feelings for her

At the time, I remember telling Jessica that I was dating a certain girl in college and since both Jessica and Anna are cousins and I already was friends with benefits with Jessica It wasn't right for me to try anything with Anna, right? That's literally what I did...

I will admit I really was a terrible person and I used to cheat a lot, but only with Jessica...

Anna said she would have a very special test on a Saturday and I wasn't really sure whether I liked her enough or not so I decided to go with her to see if she was into me(she was) Only problem was that I didn't have much money on me and the place where we bought food wasn't allowing people to eat there so I thought we could both go to Jessica's house since it wasn't very far away [Jessica wasn't home though, but I found her mom and aunt there(I didn't realize how wrong It was to be there without Jessica knowing)]. This clearly wasn't a good idea.

We had fun together though and I was convinced to commit to her and I already had a plan to get rid of my current girlfriend so I could date Anna.

The very next day, Jessica texted me asking how I was (she never does) and if I didn't have anything to tell her I simply said I spent Saturday with her cousin and that Anna and I had fun together She wasn't OK with this and after a small argument she blocked me on Whatsapp

I then decided to not get in contact with Jessica for a while(we were in December already) and focused more on Anna... So 2023 arrives and I was travelling. When I got back in my country (Angola) I decided to end things with my girlfriend (I will be honest with everyone, I never really cared that much about this girl and I only dated her because she was really into me and I didn't want to say no to her, I know this ain't a good excuse though) and asking Anna to be my girlfriend

So Anna becomes my girlfriend and we both have sex for the first time on that very same day( yeah, I was still a virgin)

Three days later I call Jessica to try and solve things and it didn't work... she decided to tell everything to Anna about the fact that we were friends with benefits and Anna got really upset She said she would rather find out about this earlier and that's my fault too

So Jessica starts literally ignoring Anna and she doesn't reply to most of her messages for almost 2 months

My relationship with Anna just got better and stronger though

So Jessica and Anna went to their grandmother's birthday earlier this month and Jessica was clearly upset and didn't talk to Anna throughout most of the day I don't have that many details but Anna said Jessica said she was really hurt by all this (Jessica didn't even know we were dating, which would have made things worse)

Anna asked me if we could talk and I knew It wasn't going to end well for me So Anna wanted to break up with me but she wasn't finding the words to say it. I asked her to not break up with me because I would try to find a solution for all of this mess

I texted Jessica on Facebook but she didn't reply. Then I panicked and asked a friend's advice who suggested that I should talk to Anna to go see her cousin and ask her if we could talk all in person

Good idea, right? No... Jessica literally told all the things I did in the past, including that I was a cheater and that I was gonna dump Anna like I did to Jessica (me and Jessica never dated though)

So Anna breaks up with me and thinks I am a liar and a cheater , despite me never cheating on her and having lots of plans for our future

What should I do? I know I messed up but I changed for this girl and I want her back Any advice? I didn't talk to Anna ever since and I want to solve all this

Note: In my country, making out with a friend still counts as being friends with benefits, so my bad

TLDR: My girlfriend broke up with me because I was friends with benefits with her cousin previously and she thinks I cheated on her