I'm gonna put the part which i wrote when i woke up at 6 am unable to stop thinking about the situation 4 days ago first and then an update on how the situation progressed from there. I guess this is a warning to you all about how manipulative and charming these psychos on the internet can be.

Part 1:

Honestly, I think this is still a TIFU in the making, but I just feel like I need to get it out of my system. I’ve been talking to a girl online for 3,5 weeks now and we both feel like we click extremely well, like with no one else before. We are 28M/30F. But the problem is that we simply haven’t been able to meet. She works as a doctor and has been telling me the whole time that her coworkers are sick and she is covering a lot more work at the hospital and thus exhausted. I believe she also had some issues trusting me at the start because of my own stupid mistake. About a week in we had one such a very specific conversation where we both felt the spark and the convo turned into sexual innuendos. My mistake then was inviting her over to my place to watch a movie. She did reply that the idea sounds good, but she is too exhausted from work at the moment and would let me know next week. So I gave her my number without her asking and told her to text me on whatsapp, which she didn’t do. I had asked for her facebook once before we had that spark moment as well and she told me she wants to keep talking on the dating site.

So 3 days goes by without any answer to me sharing my number with her and I thought I had fucked up. I wrote to her on valentines day and our spark continued like before and we pretty much haven’t stopped talking since then. Our conversations go on through the whole day (we text for 9 hours straight sometimes...) and turn into constant innuendos and one night our conversation turned very sexual, we basically wrote erotica to each other and she told me she was extremely wet and bothered. I honestly had no idea I was capable of turning on a woman so much through text. I started having very strong feelings for her and could barely even sleep 3-4 hours. And the next day I found out that she hasn’t been able to stop thinking about me for awhile now. That night she was very close to coming over, asking for my address and such. But since we were both tired and I think she still wasn’t able to fully trust me, it didn’t happen. She even told me she is trying very hard not to think with her vagina. I should mention here a fact that makes all this even more difficult: she has had stalkers before, a guy that followed her home from work and another who kept messaging her friends of facebook after she rejected him. So I completely understand her.

And now guess what, she caught COVID. By now I’ve realized my fuckup and I asked her on a proper dinner date when she gets better, about which she of course mentioned how on the date she probably wouldn't be able to keep her hands off me and have to pull me into the toilet with her to fuck and a whole bunch of more text followed about how much we want each other and how we’ll just show up to the date naked and assert our dominance to the other couples lmfao. So I guess in the end, I really fucking hope she does meet me because I have never felt like this about anyone and she has told me the same. And whats fucked up is we both realize that we are kinda stuck in fantasy at the moment, but at the same time it seems we have both demonstrated the things that we value in a partner to eachother. Not just her desire for me and sex. She has shown me caring, warmness and we are both funny as fuck to each other. And it scares the hell out of me. After all this she is still dodging my request for her facebook. I can completely see it from her perspective, she can’t truly know I won’t act like a stalker, but it just makes me feel like she is hiding something… I guess there isn’t really much to do besides wait out her covid and hope for the best. I feel like she is my soulmate, but im very afraid of getting hurt. I didn’t know a woman was capable of feeling this way about me because my past relationships have been really shit by comparison. Today I woke up again after 4 hours and felt the need to write this because I was literally feeling nauseous from love sickness.

Part 2:

I am writing this part after the whole thing fell apart.

She kept messaging me sweet good morning texts every day that made me feel all warm and cared for, we discussed our futures together, what we want out of life. And the way we riff off each other with jokes was just unreal. I had shown her the art I make and she was absolutely stunned. We discussed such intimate details of our lives that it felt like we truly are in a relationship and she joked about running over to me with a ring because on paper i am the perfect man for her and even if i turned out to be a fraction of what we have online she is sold on me. She finally set up a meeting date with me on Friday.

Then, another guy on the website messaged me. He told me not to believe anything she says and claims to have found her real facebook profile. I looked it up and confirmed that many things she had told me line up with her feed. Only the picture was of a completely different person, still extremely attractive, but different nonetheless. She had told me she's a doctor, likes singing, loves dogs a lot, invited me to hike at a bog on our first date. The facebook profile was a doctor, pictures of her at singing events, multiple posts shared of dog shelters and love of dogs, cover photos are all of bogs. She works at the anaesthesiology clinic at my local hospital. I am fucking terrified of what would've happened if i went to the bog with her. I confronted her about this guy messaging me and she started freaking out that she knew his handwriting was similar to one of her mentally ill ex-es who has some kinda love crazies about her for 10 years already. She told me she needs to withdraw from the situation because on top of covid she has to deal with her stalker returning as well. I decided I can't trust the pictures she sent me anymore and asked her to send me a selfie where she does a special symbol with her fingers. She replied "Yeah gonna be a great picture with my cried off face..." To the end she kept saying how much she cares about me and I don't deserve to be dragged into this mess. And then she deleted her profile on the site.

I kept talking with the other dude, he told me they've been talking for the same time as me and mentioned a lot of the same details she had told me, how he's the only one who can get her wet like that, asking for address and calculating how fast she could get there, descriptions of erotic things she would do, etc. I am just completely mindfucked. I feel like i've developed some major trust issues from this ordeal.

TL;DR: Met a woman online, who seemed to be the absolute perfect fit for me, our conversations flowing so naturally and humorously, making future plans and telling how much we care about each other. Only for a guy to show up and show me he found her real profile where everything fits, besides the pictures. Her of course claiming this guy is her psycho stalker ex. I am 99% sure i know her real profile and she's a real doctor working at an anaesthesiology clinic. I'm sure you can get the implication.

EDIT: On second thought, i think the real doctor's profile is too convenient to the story. I think her identity was just stolen. And the aneaesthesiology thing is convenient to scare people off from actually messaging her.

EDIT2: Found the person who the pics are from through Pimeyes after trying many other search engines. It couldn't find the exact pictures, but the resemblence is like 95%. They're from a dating site in a country next to mine.