Like self harm? If it’s that then I used to cut myself but I’ve worked that thru and for some time I would weight lift mostly for the soreness later the I would focus on the pain (also not healthy) now I just get really intrusive thoughts like I wanna cut myself again but I would just smoke a bit and play video games until i can talk to someone. Over the past 4 years I’ve made a lot of progress but I still have more work to do on myself.