NTA and you could've been right, she might have.

I think you had a bad time and you'll both get over it.

"but we have talked since and she doesn't resent me for what happened... we both agreed we needed a break until the next trip and there are things in our life we need to change and improve first..."

Absolutely. It sounds like you need to be kind to yourself and each other. Yeah ans as someone else said, stay away from whoever you got them from because that aint right.

Hope you are both ok. try to give each other lots of hugs. Snuggle under a blanket with hot chocolate, you need to comforting.