Honey, if you didn't say it to hurt him, then this is NOT your fault whatsoever! How he responded initially was going to be a toss up, and you hadn't planned on what his reaction was. His continued anger is completely on him. My mother has ALWAYS had a celebrity crush or two, and my dad ENABLES it. Do NOT feel bad for who you are/ how you see the world around you. Do NOT feel bad for finding someone you will probably never meet attractive and trying to speak about it to an SO. This is NORMAL and if you mean no harm by it, they shouldn't take offense and gaslight you into thinking you do. You should be able to communicate almost anything to your partner. This situation is completely on him and I really hope you have this in a box of possibly leaving your partner unless he rectifies and apologizes for his behavior. I am so sorry you feel bad about this but I promise you, you've done absolutely nothing wrong.