I may not be the best person to take advice from, but if you have any friends them talk with them about it, and if you don't (no shame, I didn't at your age) talk to your dad or his mom more about it. Ask them for advice, help, and emotional support during this crucial time of stress. You may even be able to become good friends with his mom, who knows. But whatever you do, don't rush anything drastic since you are emotionally stressed and not calm yet. Unless you recovered quickly. But rum crucial decisions by a trusted friend or adult before running through what you could regret later. That's what I wish I had at your age when I had a similar situation at least.