Man I know this situation so badly. I know you wrote this cause it causes you more stress to think about the consequences but I assure you that this was the right thing to do. Not only can this help your life, but also your families and siblings. CPS won't just barge in and take kids away. They will investigate and try to find ways to help the family better care for the children. This could not only help you, but the whole family. You have done nothing wrong in this situation. Let them help and don't hide anything from them. Your life is tough and you are valid in every feeling you have. I hope things get better, and keep fighting. It's worth it.