Dont get further down by reddit people . Nobody knows what therapy you are doing, who you are etc etc etc. If you left the therapy part out people wouldnt be that judgementful about you but say hey...shit friend and upvote you blah blah. See it as a vent post and ignore the noise/switch of from this post and try to relax/do something you enjoy to feel better buddy. All the best to you and your progress. One day at a time :)