Honey I was Summer, my best friend Rachel was you. Your story brought back so many memories for me. Don’t take this personally, he probably really does love you. I’m going to go out on a limb and say Summer could very well be gay, I know that’s how things ended up with Rachel and I (although she recently just came out herself). For what it’s worth, we’re still incredibly close 20 years later, and love one another probably even more than we did 20 years ago. Don’t be so hard on yourself, I have a feeling things will be ok.