I'm sorry, but changed her view on what exactly? Trying to help her kids? Medication? What exactly was your goal? To not get any help? To keep suffering through it? I was once your age struggling with major depression (still am) and I wish I would have actually gotten the help I needed when my mom tried to help me. As others have said OP, really apologize to her and let her know that you've thought about it and you didn't mean to hurt her. Take initiative now. It's your turn to tell her you want to get help. From what you've said, I doubt she'll refuse to. You're also gonna have to give her some time to process everything you told her. Hope everything turns out alright ❤️‍🩹!!