Christmas came and went great and last night we invited our friends over for some drinks. I ended up getting pretty drunk, not quite typical for me, and we were all having a great time. Well everyone is sitting on the couch and i’m sitting on some beanbags lower than the coffee table and couches, and my viewpoint is a little screwed. My boyfriend gets up and goes behind me to the fridge and when he comes back i see him in my peripheral like he’s about to throw something at me. well i flinch and end up jerking my arm right into his dick which is eye level cause i have terrible terrible reflexes. He immediately doubled over and our friends start making fun of me while my boyfriend goes into the bathroom. I go silent and eventually our friends leave while my boyfriend is still in the bathroom. i just sit there and cry and cry and couldn’t keep it together for the rest of the night. my partner forgave me as it truly was an accident but i just feel like i ruined everything and that i fucked it all up like usual (i’m very clumsy and have terrible reflexes and i usually break things or fall constantly when even sober and it’s one of my biggest insecurities).

TL;DR i accidentally ghit my boyfriends balls and ended up ended our christmas day with my crying and him in pain.