Depression sucks. I’ve had it i know. But you need to recognize it’s not just hard for you and it’s not fair to expect other people to carry your burden with you. Nobody owes it to you to compromise their own mental health so you don’t feel worse or get hurt. If you have people who stick with you through such a difficult time, great! But those who can’t or don’t want to handle it are not bad people for looking after their own mental health first.