Visual_Mission_1459 OP t1_j26zop5 wrote on December 30, 2022 at 2:35 AM

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its not that easy. the problem is im really unstable and i do shit impulsively and recklessly without even thinking. if it was so easy to just stop i wouldnt have made this post

[deleted] t1_j270qzz wrote on December 30, 2022 at 2:42 AM

It is that easy. Stop making excuses and start making better choices. No one can do it for you, and while I'm sure you have trauma, your traumas don't dictate your choices unless you let them.

Visual_Mission_1459 OP t1_j271lnv wrote on December 30, 2022 at 2:49 AM

it really isnt trust me ive tried to quit so many times. i started selfharming at 10/11 yrs old but here i am at 15 and still doing it even when i made promises, threw out blades and swore to myself i'd never do it again. im trying i really am i even cleaned my entire room and have been clean for selfharm for a few days. i am trying really hard to get better but i just dont have a support system..

[deleted] t1_j2725li wrote on December 30, 2022 at 2:53 AM

That's a good step. But finding something to replace alcohol is key. Alcohol abuse just makes you depressed.

Visual_Mission_1459 OP t1_j272nkp wrote on December 30, 2022 at 2:56 AM

well the issue is its not rly alcohol that i abuse that much. i take pills to get high and i smoke weed and i cut myself or even burn myself occassionally. its an addiction to harm myself in any way possible ive even desensitized myself from gore and im getting fucked up each day. this is tiring..

[deleted] t1_j2731re wrote on December 30, 2022 at 2:59 AM

Okay, so, this is you asking for help. I'm just an internet stranger. But I can promise you that you won't find help hurting yourself. You're three years from full independence. You'll make it.

Malevolent_Mangoes t1_j27ajel wrote on December 30, 2022 at 3:56 AM

You need to get professional help. Like admit yourself to a mental hospital type of help, considering you’re burning yourself to self harm.

Ocean_Spice t1_j28svkr wrote on December 30, 2022 at 1:59 PM

You’re going to ruin your life and all your relationships if you keep making excuses for your shitty behavior.