Submitted by recyclable-trash t3_zyt3xh in tifu
To preface, I have bad anxiety and have seen people in the past for it. I’ve also just recently left my small regional town for the big city and the loneliness and fear struck today.
But today, I decided I’d check out a gym and try it out for the new year. Have a real fitness kick like most do. I checked out a Goodlife nearby and it seemed nice. Went home did more research and signed up. Felt anxious and a bit conscious about money but still ok. I went to check Google maps to figure out the fastest route. Only to find that they half of their ratings are 1 star. I spiral. I try to console myself and be like, most people who like it wouldn’t review it. If I don’t like it after a session I can leave during the trial period. It’s only a grand a year. And on and on and on and on. I start having a fun little anxiety attack. Call my boyfriend, cry a little.
I decided to take a small journey to get some knitting supplies as I’m wanting to pick up the hobby. I start feeling better and just say fuck this, I call up the gym and embarrassingly cancelled my membership. I was shaking but I did it. I feel so much better and less of a big fuck-up. I’ll just continue to work out from home like I always do.
TL:DR Joined a gym, spiraled and panicked, left the gym
professionalmeangirl t1_j27qgs1 wrote
proud of you! glad they let you cancel. it's so okay to feel something out, and always okay to change your mind.