I enjoy being with her, I do find it easy, but the thing is early on in the relationship I never mentioned any of these issues and I guess she jokes about them because I started mentioning them when she got into contact with her childhood friend again. The only reason why I told her was because I wanted her to know that I felt safe telling her, she knows a lot about my past now, and she knows when too much is too much. Though usually ends up with her getting upset cause she thinks I don't fully trust her due to my insecurities. We both put in the effort and we always joke around with each other, usually avoiding topics that we can't handle, but she's started joking about this kind of stuff when I told her I was ok with it due to finally getting over my insecurities. She doesn't know they have returned in the past month

the events that occurred with the childhood friend saying he was her boyfriend was because we were on a break and she wanted someone to play the role to feel safe at school (we don't attend the same ones) and because I was bringing it up she automatically went to him for help and it happened, he didn't know we were dating again.