first of all, im so sorry you were recorded without your consent. is there any update on if he has deleted anything? that’s not okay at all and must be so stressful for you:(

second, i don’t know how old you are so sorry if this sounds too prescriptive, but i think it’s a good time to reevaluate what you are wanting for yourself right now. a relationship might not be what you need right now and that’s okay! the best thing to do is tell your partner everything. he deserves that much from you. you explored other options for a reason, maybe that’s a sign this isn’t the guy you want. if it is you can only hope he gives you a chance to try again. but if you find yourself having urges again you obviously don’t want this person enough and he doesn’t deserve someone that only half wants him

good luck and hope your boyfriend is safe and sound. <3