Hot take, it shows through the desperation that you appear to be clingy. Friends are friends, they are not like your lovers or something. It is good that you are open to clear communication about your feelings and everything, but you should save it for people who will care. Realise that some friends you keep a distance with, and other friends you are really close with. It's something you have to come to terms as you get to know them, sometimes that's just the way things are. Maybe you don't vibe the same or don't have much in common, that's okay. Like someone else said, don't force it.