This. And i do absolutely love hanging out with the young ones in small doses perhaps a couple of times a month. As someone in their 30s, i get to learn a lot, and imbibe some of that youthful enthusiasm. But any more than once or twice a month and that selfsame youthful enthusiasm is, more than likely, going to become annoying to the point of gouging out my eyeballs and giving myself sensorineural hearing loss.

The brass and tacs here is that OP is, perhaps overinvested, and for him, OP is perhaps slightly more than a form of assisted masturbation.