I'm sorry, but I totally understand. Holidays have always been difficult with my family. Violence when i was a child makes the holidays something to be avoided and every year its "pretend to have holiday cheer" so as not ti be that grinch but it just makes you want to stay away from everyone. We have been totally holiday free for a few years now and it is kind of nice to just sit on the couch and ignore the world. Good luck with the gaming and hope you are able to ignore all the holiday cheer and relax. Its little help, but we when we have our holiday bong later we will think of you in solidarity, so someone is thinking of you!