Put diary update. I’ve been drinking dew drops found on the forest leaves and I have been eating mushrooms and moss, mostly mushrooms. My rabies have taken a turn for the worse. I am starting to hallucinate. When I close my eyes, I can see strange characters running around in colorful geometric shapes in a dark and infinite limbo. Red arrows everywhere that point downward into an abyss that knows no bounds. I have stopped closing my eyes in fear that I will go from the personification of a bear to an actual bear, the animal bear you see at zoos.