This little test is a real eye opener on childhood trauma. I suggest you take it so you have an idea that what you went thru will affect you. All the other advice in here is really great.

https://www.npr.org/sections/health-shots/2015/03/02/387007941/take-the-ace-quiz-and-learn-what-it-does-and-doesnt-mean

There might be help here: https://numberstory.org/help-right-now/