What a message. What an absolute amazing message. I like brutal and honest messaging because it can serve as a potential wake up call.

I'll get the negative and disagreement out of the way first. Do I think I screwed up? No I do not. I brought up something that was on my mind because the person who was given access to her body, was a liar, a cheat, and untrustworthy. He's poisoned her body with food and a disease, meanwhile I've been more careful and I'm willing to show receipts. Why is a man who is reckless, ridiculous, and unreliable a better man than I am? Why was he given something he hadn't earned, meanwhile I work my ass off to show that I'm the real deal. And this is coming from someone who had one point had no self esteem or value to another person. Now? I can protect, provide, and help out in certain situations because I've worked to be capable. Bringing up other women giving me attention isn't me trying to attack an insecurity, that's a logical fact that happened when she was present with me. I can't stop things like that from happening

With all that being said, as for the rest of what you stated. I can't refute it. You bring up a lot of things I haven't asked myself before and it makes me truly think that the situation isn't about me. It's about her comfort doing certain things even though there is no real risk to her at all. And as far as you saying I don't care about her because it seems that way, she has a disease that makes it extremely hard to have a relationship with her. Let's just say I've taken care of her more than the person who was reckless and tried to kill her with his idiocy.

And it's fine to paint me out to be a villain. I don't take back anything that I said, I asked certain questions because I want to know the truth of why others were given something when they didn't earn it and abused it. While I'm willing to work for it, show that I'm trustworthy, and still not given a real answer. You've shown me a few things I need to look at. I need to be better, more forward thinking, and caring. I appreciate your time.

I think you're right. I'll stop trying to force it and see if it can occur naturally. I don't want 28 minutes of it, literally just 15 seconds or so just because it's her. It's reassuring.

As for plan B, I can't disagree with anything you said.

And I'll ask. What the requirements are for the next step. I know I'm ready for anything. Just need to see where she is at.

I never thought about it this way. Holy shit. This actually hits me different, its not about the sex....let me apologize for coming off in that way. I didn't mean to seem selfish, it's just that I thought with all the work and effort I'm putting in, I was wondering why a person who betrayed her was allowed all of everything but not me? Who has been completely trust worthy.

Right idea, wrong approach. I get it now. Thanks for your response. I'll speak with her again and try to work it out from a different angle.

She's told me something similar. I appreciate your response.

And well, I didn't mention that I'm above average in the size department. I know girth can scare certain people, I just thought that doing it every once in awhile to change things up wouldn't be an issue.

And with birth control, I told her I'd even buy plan B just to make sure she felt safe. I just feel weird because someone else who lied to her was able too and I've already said I'd take responsibility for whatever happens. Makes me feel like she doesn't trust me? But I think I'm over thinking it.

Thank you for your time.

Again. I apologize for the poor formatting. I'm on mobile.