As a very planned an intricate individual, I have kept that in mind, but it's funny because she has given me an unreal amount of self esteem via advice and by just existing. My parents don't understand how she gets me to smile so much by just existing in the room.

I've already aligned myself being in my last semester of my first year of college and being in the air force I couldn't be more aligned and set on a straight path I'm just trying to aquire my crush along the way, and thank you once again.

And if you haven't seen my edit to the post I appreciate your comments, anything helps.

Agreed but, I've lived through horrible things and am numb at this point, my self esteem died years ago along with my father and girlfriend.

It may be cruel but I'm used to pain at this point, if she ends up falling for me it will all be worth it if she doesn't then we will just stay friends forever. I'm just here looking to see if anybody else thinks that she could have a change in heart. I made the girl a promise to always be there for her regardless of the situation at hand.

I'm fine with being a backup option, even if I have to wait. Plus even with my background I still wouldn't be able to block her and remove her if I wanted to.

Yes, but any info is good info in my book

She isn't dating him, or anybody right now, they have a fling where she loves him but he doesn't want to move on with her in life and she isn't liking that, and she knows she's dumping everything on me she's supposed to I told her and made sure that she does, she even apologizes everyday for being emotional or talking to me about it.

We are always on the phone having legitimate on average of 10-52 hour phone call sessions every day for the last 3 weeks even rn as I'm replying she's on the phone with me.

I am friends with her and always will want to be, I pointed this out to her and she said no that it's completely normal and ok with me still having feelings and waiting that it wouldn't make me a creep.