Actually had a false hope entering this post. No worries though. I barely posted something to the Subreddit, a similar case.
I hope you can achieve what you sought after, skipped last paragraph at realization this wasn't for me. If not, then come to terms with it and be able to move on.
Edit: Will cheer you on in the path you choose. This stems from me fighting a similar battle right now.
Chip123321 t1_iud7ekv wrote
Reply to TIFU by realizing he did care to late by Peachm1lk0
Actually had a false hope entering this post. No worries though. I barely posted something to the Subreddit, a similar case.
I hope you can achieve what you sought after, skipped last paragraph at realization this wasn't for me. If not, then come to terms with it and be able to move on.
Edit: Will cheer you on in the path you choose. This stems from me fighting a similar battle right now.