Cosmic_Hitchhiker t1_j2dka1c wrote

I wish so much that I'd known when I was suicidal last year to call my local psychiatric intervention center over calling the suicide hotline.

The suicide hotline called the cops. I was humiliated and dropped in front of a hospital, that didn't even have a psych ward, with no wallet or ID of any kind. The hospital treated me horrifically, only asking me any questions after pushing ativan on me so i was deliriously tired. They misplaced an IV line that I didn't even need and then left me for 12 hours, going so far as to tell the next shift they didn't need to pay attention to me.

When an ambulance finally came to pick me up to transfer me to a different facility, they got into an argument about where I was going. No one asked me where I'd like to go, so now I also owe $600 for ambulance transfer.

I called the SH at 630am. At 1230am the following day I was dropped at my local psychiatric intervention center who got me set up with outpatient care, a psychiatrist, a therapist, and a hot meal within 30 minutes and then paid for a taxi to take me home safely.

I don't mean this lightly: I will absolutely kill myself before ever calling the suicide hotline again.

I have the psychiatric facility number saved instead.

And this isn't counting the time i called them in college after being sexually assaulted and having the man tell me I just "didn't want it to happen that way. Doesn't mean it was rape."