Well getting closer with my friends gf is no viable option for me. I wouldn't be able to Look at myself in the mirror. The only Thing i know is that no matter what, i want to go on being friends with him.

I'm just f*ing confused.

No matter what i have to talk to my gf to speak about what we want and if we do have the same goals.

What i have to See for myself is:

1. am i overreacting because 15 yo me would be happy af? Is this kind of attention something i am lacking?
2. how should i behave towards Jessica after she breaks up with my friend w/o being unfair towards my friend and my gf
3. what do i really want atm in life or is it something else im nervous about.

I am sorry, but guys - please don't interpret my writing too much. I am fighting against auto correction as i am not a native englisch speaker and i am writing the post and answers in the little free Time i have at work

Well, i don't disagree that i am a moron. But i think i kind of misexplained the children/housing Situation.:

Just in my point of view i would really like to build a house / home and then have kids. Financially there wouldn't be a Problem.

My gf on the other hand doesn't know when she wants to have kids and when she wants to buy a house. She always says she can still get pregnant at 35 e.g. if she wants to but i'm worried what will Happen then and if she still even wants kids