See this is probably true of most people but I have legitimately just become really good at tricking other people into thinking I'm a good person, because I'm superficial and obsessed with external image. Other people seeing me as good and virtuous means more to me than actually being good and virtuous, and I'm aware of how fucked this is but that doesn't make it untrue. I feel like every kind/generous/selfless thing I've ever done has at its core just been an effort to earn people's love/admiration/respect. Even when it feels like genuine empathy, I know deep down that it's probably just so deeply engrained into my personality that in reality I'm still being superficial and disingenuous despite it feeling otherwise.
EscapedTheMatrix t1_j1hflpd wrote
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See this is probably true of most people but I have legitimately just become really good at tricking other people into thinking I'm a good person, because I'm superficial and obsessed with external image. Other people seeing me as good and virtuous means more to me than actually being good and virtuous, and I'm aware of how fucked this is but that doesn't make it untrue. I feel like every kind/generous/selfless thing I've ever done has at its core just been an effort to earn people's love/admiration/respect. Even when it feels like genuine empathy, I know deep down that it's probably just so deeply engrained into my personality that in reality I'm still being superficial and disingenuous despite it feeling otherwise.