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Escuertol t1_j61z1iq wrote
Reply to comment by NaditzuKokoro in The voice in your head can't change volume, so you can't annoy mindreaders by yelling. by Neoslayer
For me, it works vastly differently from what the other guy wrote above. There is thought, I just don't hear my own voice "reading out loud" what I'm currently thinking, I just know that I'm thinking about it.
I've never had to memorize scripts for social interaction or anything like that, on the contrary, I'm a professor and I usually give my classes without much preparation, words just flow.
Aphantasia is a spectrum, so every experience will be different, some just don't see mental imagery, some don't have "mental smell", or hearing, or can't recreate physical sensations. I'm a total aphant so I don't have any of those, yet I still know what is red or how a truck sounds.
The best analogy I've seen is that of a PC that works perfectly fine, with its processor, its hard drive, graphics card and so on, it's just that the monitor is off.
Edit: I also lived until I was 25 without even knowing other people could do that in their minds. I still can't imagine how (pun intended)
Escuertol t1_j60gmzt wrote
Reply to The voice in your head can't change volume, so you can't annoy mindreaders by yelling. by Neoslayer
I might bore them to death since I'm aphantasic and also lack any internal monologue. Have fun looking and listening to nothingness.
Escuertol t1_j64o1zc wrote
Reply to comment by edbles in The voice in your head can't change volume, so you can't annoy mindreaders by yelling. by Neoslayer
Sooort of, it's not nearly as impressive as it sounds. Yeah I'm constantly "in the moment", but I too experience the flow state and it's quite different from my normal state of mind.
Some might argue they'd kill for being able to live in the present, but I'd kill to be able to play back my memories in my mind, instead of having a "list of things I've done" kind of memory.
All that being said, I did go through a depressive period when I realized this, but now I've come to see it in a different light.