omg. i understand how u feel. abour the fear of bugs, i have the biggest fear of cockroaches. i scream (literally) and run away the moment i see one and will not enter the room for awhile. once a cockroach appeared next to me on my bed and i didnt sleep for the whole night after that (i moved to my dads room and slept there). im sorry this happened to you!!! you’ll eventually get over it 🥰