In the case of my ex, she would be abusive towards me and all then for a few weeks things would 'get better' and normalize then it would happen again.

Therapy helped me see that cycle of abuse and emotional manipulation i was in. Note she never abused me physically but mentally and emotionally she did. She'd get very angry and yell at me and say its my fault she's angry,aggressive and yelling at me.

There was a period after we broke up where she was threatening to kill me and I was so afraid I carried a gun everywhere I went. I legitimately considered getting a restraining order on her. She went and got mental health help and she takes meds now and is much more stable and better and now we get along at least.

Even if it was infidelity on her part it doesn't excuse taking someone's life. Even if your partner cheats on you it doesn't mean you can just kill them. Domestic abuse or infidelity its still just as bad to kill someone.

I also have ADHD which is classified as a disability and GAD so yeah I ain't the one for that task. I am however trustworthy and somewhat responsible. My sister told me my parents are planning to leave their house to me and I wouldn't be surprised if its us two youngest girls handling much of the administrative side of that.

Even though I'm only 29, my parents just turned 70 and its something real to think about.

Okay I agree with this. Like for example i am the youngest and personally I dont think I'd be able to bear that kind of emotional burden my cousin did with my aunt. I am aware that if my parents are in that situation I am not the one for that. Luckily there's 4 of us, 3 girls and 1 boy so one of us girls will probably be it. I am pretty squeamish about death and a lotta medical stuff. I dont even like needles.

Honestly I think more people should die at home surrounded by loved ones in their own bed. So many people die in nursing homes, or hospitals instead of surrounded by loved ones in a place of comfort. My aunt had terminal cancer and for the final years of her life she opted to stay at home and refused all medical care and treatment. She had battled cancer for a very long time she even defeated breast cancer twice but it would always come back somewhere else. Eventually it spread through her whole body and she resigned herself to a peaceful death at her home, in her own bed, with her only child there taking careful care of her. Sure there were nurses that would occasionally visit but still she was at home and her daughter lived with her and stayed by her side.