"I am Jack's sense of complete confusion."

Seriously though, what did I just read?

It's understandable to be emotionally put off by this, but take courage, declare your intentions(it's worse having to agonize later or what-if's), and if things turn out well keep in touch as best you can. High school only lasts so long(for the better and for the worse) and when that time is up you two can meet up again and (with hope, effort, and enough luck) continue where you left off. Best of luck to you, OP and I hope that no matter does happen, that things turn out for the best for you.