Going to keep being normal with her in terms of communication. Gauge her vibe, and then I'll ask if she needs company at the wedding, I'd really like to come with. I'll probably give it another couple weeks before I ask.

I'd really want to be open in person, rather than over text or online. Looking each other in the eyes, hugging it out if need be, etc. I still want to angle for a trip to that wedding she's going to in January, and we can have open conversation on another day hopefully.

Good response. Her main thing is that I fix all my issues, and develop more as a man so I don't slip back into that miserable stage. I'm being non-argumentative with her currently and being genuinely kind. She's still heartbroken that it had to take a break up for me to "wake up". She's being kind to me as of now, sending me pictures, etc. I'm not sure I have the greatest read on the situation but she allowed me to buy cutesy gifts for her again. Previously she said she doesn't want anything as it'd make her somehow indebted to me. No arguments as of a week now, and she's still sad but being nice towards me. Texting me back, etc.

I was planning on making a gift box for her with a handwritten letter and shipping it over. I also have been working out and was planning on getting a really nice outfit since she's going to a cousins wedding in January. My plan was to look my best, feel my best, and ask her if I can join her. Let me know if this is too forward. I really miss her..

That's what she told me as well. I fear I'm too late. What do I do.

They'd pay for me moving. It'd be simple. But my fear is it won't matter by then.

My job offers relocation after 2 years worked. I'm a year in. She brought up if I can do that on the trip she broke up with me on. She is not moving from NYC. Zero chance.

I took the steps to improve but she just views it as desperation or panic. Yesterday she told me, "I'm not handling this super well, you being perfect now is just heartbreaking. The most bittersweet." I'm addressing my behavior too late. Bad communication, and resentment took over.