TotallyNotJonMoog

TotallyNotJonMoog t1_j5duq2q wrote

Everything was so quiet. So surreal. It was as if the whole world was put on mute except for me.

That voice in the back of my head screamed out to me for a second time. This time, the voice was louder, as if it was aware that I was dazed and confused. This time, the voice registered in my mind. It boomed and echoed throughout the cavern of my mind as I tried to shake the cobwebs loose to clear my head.

They said there would be confusion. Boy, were they right.
I feel detached. Like my head is floating on a string, far, far above my body. Just swaying in the breeze.

Feeling your consciousness merging with the consciousness of someone else will do that to you. It's a very surreal and sobering feeling. Honestly, it's scary, really scary.

It's almost impossible to describe, but there is a very distinct moment where you feel like you are suffocating. Your body feels paralyzed, but you are still mentally aware of everything happening around you. It's like you're trapped inside of your own body, and you swear you can feel the individual muscles around your lungs all failing to contract. Failing to breathe.

I start to gasp. Once. Twice.

Everything slows way down, and intrusive thoughts flood my mind:

"Is this what a fish out of water feels like?" I think in between gasps for air.

"Why do I feel so calm?"

I feel like I'm dying, but I've accepted it. Made peace with it. In the background of my mind, I'm aware of the spasms in my solar plexus as my body lurches off of the floor. It's my body's futile attempts to cling to life.

Things shift, and I suddenly feel like I'm floating in water. Rocking peacefully back and forth, like a raft on a lazy river. I'm fully aware I'm thinking my last thoughts and wish I had something better to be thinking about, but I don't.

Suddenly, I know I'm surrendering. could feel my body fully relax. It was a peace I had never known before. And as I lay there, shadows are creeping into my eyes, clouding over my vision.

The moment my vision goes completely black is my final moment. I know it before it happens. Then it started, and my vision went black as my brain shut down, deprived of oxygen.

For a moment, I cease to exist.

Suddenly, it's the Big Bang, and I'm stardust shooting through the cosmos. Shooting throughout my whole body brings life back into every molecule. Every atom.

My lungs rapidly expanded, breathing life into my soul once again. I could feel the electricity dancing through my Nervous System and brain as they reconnected to my soul and spirit.

"Reincarnation is complete, Sir."

"That's his 12th one. What's his total sentence?"

"276 consecutive cycles."

"Well, we better get going on the next one. How should we start?"

"With trauma. Lots and lots of trauma. Give him a lot of childhood trauma this time around, and then we'll just build from there."

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